I do not know exactly what you are currently going through. It may be a pain from the past or anxiety of the future. It may be a thorn continuously striking your heart, preventing you from living life to the fullest. It may be a loss. A failure. A heartache, rejection, or disappointment. It may be an unidentifiable force, prohibiting you from experiencing the precious blessing of being alive.
I may not know your exact situation.
But I am sure that you can rise up from it.
Most of my teenage years were spent living with seemingly-incessant sadness and failures. Few years ago, I had depression that brought me into the cage of loneliness. Did you ever feel an insurmountable sadness but does not understand the truest reason why? For months, I was drowning from the addictive power of negativity and self-destructive behaviours.
Thankfully, I was blessed that life led me in days of survival. Although everything was absurd, I had a subtle conviction that I can live my dream, which served as a seed I had planted in my heart since I was a kid.
It was a process of aiming to grow that seed. It was a tearful, yet transformational, journey. There is only one thing I am certain that really helped me with that aim, it was that I believed in myself, not in manner of narcissism and over-confidence, but in a way that is enough to propel me in a forward, better situation.
I believed in myself when everything in my life seemed falling apart.
I believed in myself when no else was desiring to ask, “How are you? I am here to listen.”
I believed in myself like it was the last option I had.
Again, I do not exactly know what you are going through. If you are good at something, then you are lucky. But I am talking to those who are already tired and fed up with their life’s situations. I am talking to those who feel deep emptiness and hopelessness, to those who are greatly struggling with something.
I am hereby saying, I believe in you and please, believe in yourself.
Do not rush for healing. Do not put yourself a pressure nor resist it. Let it be, feel the pain, and acknowledge it. Believe that what you are going through is part of living life.
And by the way, “living” life does not mean that you are always going to be happy. Rather, it means willingness to be open with both positive and negative.
Believe in yourself, not because you are solely responsible on your own feelings and emotions, but because you are so loved, deeply special, and beautifully created, deserved to experience the joy of being alive.
Believe in yourself, not in a way that you will do everything on your own, but in a manner that you will ask for help, assistance, and guidance if necessary. Express those feelings, say that you are going through hardship, share it with your loved ones, shout in your room. Just express it.
Believe in yourself, not for the reason you believe no one else is, but because you are already enough, not needing anyone or anything to fulfil you. What you are going through may be devastating, and you may think you cannot handle it, but the truth is, you can. And you can surpass it.
I believe in you, my friend. The world may seem unfair, but you are stronger than you think you are.
The true fulfilment does not happen when one have achieved something, rather, when one rise up after falling.
If you desire someone who will listen to you, I would love the idea hearing your story.